When will I be good enough?

Do you ever feel trapped by the person you used to be?

You know Jesus has deemed you a NEW CREATION, but the old you just always has a way of creeping back into the forefront and reminding you that you just aren’t good enough…?

Making a transition in life can be endlessly tiring, and I am *trying* to make the transition into a new job.

You do your best to highlight the good qualities about yourself, show up early to interviews, and try to convey in a 15 minute window why you are a better candidate than others who have never had some of the same issues you have. But it always seems to come down to this one little DETAIL:

As a convicted felon, my least favorite phrase in the English language is “BACKGROUND CHECK.”

I try my best to remind myself that the judgment I receive from strangers is just a reflection of the person I used to be, and not the person I am now; but REJECTION sometimes feels like utter DEFEAT.

But what about when the judgment comes from the people closest to us, or even our own self-doubt?

It’s one thing for a prospective employer to tell me that, because of my past, I’m just not good enough… but why do I feel this way about me?

I always thought that since the enemy was the “father of lies” that whatever he said would be the exact opposite of the truth… but being the “father of lies” since Adam and Eve were in the garden gives you a lot of time to become GOOD AT IT.

His lies aren’t always blatant, but a little more cunning. His lies are only a little OFF-CENTER from the truth, because a good lie must be believable.

When I hear him tell me that I’m not good enough, it’s easy for me to go down that road because, well, I’M NOT.

As Romans 3:10-12 reminds me, “As it is written: ‘There is NONE righteous, no, not one; There is NONE who understands; There is NONE who seeks after God. They have ALL turned aside; They have together become unprofitable; There is NONE who does good, no, not one.’” (emphasis mine)

I’m NOT good enough. I never have been, and I never will be on this side of eternity.

But the lie is still a lie.

I may not be good enough, but that doesn’t mean that God doesn’t love me.

I may not be good enough, but that doesn’t mean that I am automatically disqualified from the blessings my Father wants to give me.

I may not be good enough, but there is One who is; and when our Father looks at us He doesn’t see the mess we have made; He sees the price He paid!

He KNOWS our sins, even more intimately than we do, because He felt the full weight of them upon Himself as He hung on the Cross!

It is no leap for me to go from feeling loved and whole, to feeling the DISCOURAGEMENT of my past. But God reminds me that, “If the world hates you, you know that it hated me before it hated you.” (John 15:18) He also tells us that we must EXPECT to face tribulation in this world, because it has fallen.

But we must keep our FAITH!

We must know that this little spec of time here on the earth is incomparable to the eternal glory we will live in once we are with Him again. We must bask in the wonder of a world where all our sin and shame will be forever FORGOTTEN. What a beautiful picture!

Our mind is a dangerous place, and the more we allow the enemy dominion over it, the worse off we become. When I feel the first waves of discouragement coming, I know I need to take action.

Sometimes I sing and praise God for His goodness, or I read His promises to me aloud. Even if I’m having trouble believing it I pray for God to give me faith and wisdom to know the TRUTH. Because the truth is that He loves us, and He only wills good for us.

The Word tells us to meditate on the goodness of God (Philippians 4:8-9). Meditation isn’t a practice of emptying your mind, but FILLING it with holy things.

God wants us to partner with Him to declare these promises over our lives! Our words have power, and when we speak the truth we might just be releasing blessings from Heaven into our natural world.

If you’ve been feeling discouraged, I want to partner with you in agreement for 7 days. I want us to pick out 7 PROMISES from the Word (I’ve included a list below to help you find some) and over the next week, I want to focus on one promise a day. Memorize it, repeat it, and remind yourself throughout the day that it is true. Write it on a piece of paper and stick it under your pillow if you have to! Whatever it takes, just keep meditating on it!

If we take the time to proactively take back enemy territory we are going to see blessing and provision in ways we never thought possible!

So will you join me on this journey?

Leave a comment and let me know how I can be praying for you over this next week!

GOD’S PROMISES:

Exodus 14:14

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still.”

Isaiah 40:29

“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.”

Isaiah 40:31

“But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

Isaiah 41:10

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

Isaiah 43:2

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”

Isaiah 54:10

“Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has compassion on you.

Isaiah 54:17

“No weapon forged against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuses you. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and this is their vindication from Me,” declares the LORD.

Isaiah 58:6

“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of the injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?”

Isaiah 61:1

“The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners.”

James 1:5

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given you.”

1 John 1:9

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”

2 Chronicles 7:14

“If my people, who are called by My Name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sins and heal their land.”

Deuteronomy 31:8

“The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

Jeremiah 29:11

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

John 8:36

“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”

Malachi 3:10

“Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.”

THESE are just a FEW of the hundreds of PROMISES OF GOD. Use these or some of your favorites from scripture, and join me as we see the floodgates of Heaven open up over our doubt and discouragement!

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