I don’t see the significance…

Sometimes it feels like my life is one big FEMA camp. I’m just traveling from one crisis to the next with brief periods in between.

It can get really hard in those moments of struggle and weakness to see any significance in the situation.

How is this struggle going to make me better in the long run?

How is this difficulty at my job going to make me a better communicator?

How is this desert season in my marriage going to help me grow into a covenant relationship type of person?

 In the storms of our lives it’s difficult to see the plan that God has set into motion.

But life isn’t like that… we don’t get to see the whole picture when the master piece is just starting to be painted.

We don’t get a glimpse into the outcome of every prayer that we say, every Bible study that we attend, or every good deed that we do… and sometimes we never get to see the end result of our efforts at all!

Yes! It is hard to see the significance in what God is doing all the time.

One of my favorite Bible verses, and in fact I would say it’s one verse that really catches my heart every time I hear it:

“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

Romans 5:8

 It blows my mind!

Every single time I read or hear that verse I can’t fathom the kind of love that God would have toward His children to intimately know every single mistake that they would ever make, every failure, every sin, every harsh remark, and still decide to endure the shame of the cross rather than spend eternity away from us!

 I don’t know about you, but my list of mistakes is pretty long and in fact it’s still growing day by.

It may have slowed down some with age, but I’m FAR from being perfect!

And in my worst moments I know for a fact that I can be downright UNLOVABLE!

But my Father doesn’t see me that way… in fact He loved me so much that He KNEW every time I would ever tell someone that I didn’t believe He even existed (before I became a Christian), but He still chose to die for me anyways!

My Father… He is the type of God who sees the SIGNIFICANCE.

He sees the messes that we are in, the pain we go through, and the tears spilt on our pillowcases at night…

And He sees the OUTCOME.

We might not be able to discern why some of the most painful parts of our lives happen to us, especially while they are happening, but our Heavenly Father is outside of time, and He sees how each piece of heartache is working together to bring us closer and closer to who we were meant to be in Him!

He sees the SIGNIFICANCE!

I sometimes wonder if God decides not to let us in on the future because we couldn’t handle the DETAILS!

Had I known that my mother was going to pass away when I was only 26 years old, I probably would have spent more time with her…

If I would have known how difficult it was to be a parent, I might have decided to wait a little bit longer, or at least read “What to Expect When You’re Expecting” a few more times…

Or had I known how hard it was going to be to spend 2 years away from my family in a state penitentiary, I probably would have thought twice before making the decisions I made that led me there.

But God knew before any of those events were set into motion that they would all work together to bring me closer to Him, and closer to the person I was meant to be.

Even looking back and knowing that everything had to occur just as it did so that I could find the one of a kind relationship that I now have with a Savior, it can still be hard to go through the tough moments of confusion and despair.

But that’s when I have to remember to trust the Man in charge.

I press into Him, knowing that He is not short on resources, knowledge, creativity, or LOVE.

He’s working it all together to create something far more beautiful than I could imagine, so I can entrust the details of my journey to Him… the Author and Finisher of my faith.

Even when it hurts to give up control, and I can’t see the “happy ending” anywhere in sight…

STILL, I know that He has my back… He hasn’t brought me this far just to drop me off… and He is not finished yet!

My prayer for you, and especially for me, this week is that we would leave the details of our destinies in the able hands of the Masterpiece Maker of our lives. That with each moment we could be willing to surrender a little more of ourselves to His plan, and to trust that He is working us into the most beautiful tapestry the world has never seen! Amen!

God bless all of you and thank you for reading!

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2 Comments Add yours

  1. Thanks for painting an amazing picture with words. Well worth the read!

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    1. Mary Wolfe says:

      Thank you for reading! I’m so glad you enjoyed it!

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